Hello Everybody! How are you all doing today?

After a long break, I am back! It has been very overwhelming. And I thought I needed a break. This break has done nothing to fix the issue. But I’ll figure out a way to solve this dilemma. I am trying my hardest to be creative again. And there is a strange gut feeling that tells me that it won’t work. That is why I decided to stop doing stings to take some time to relax. It didn’t work, and I am starting to know why.

So I realized I have a bunch of things to do. Not only at work, home, and online. There is much to handle in one week. At least my new job is more chill. But I have to work more if I want more money. During my days off, I handle some of my chores and all my online tasks. At this point I’ve stopped going to the gym and cooking home meals is exhausting. Not to mention planning for soon events like moving and traveling. There is so much to think about, how can I ever relax.

To make myself feel better, I took a break from posting on Mondays. I don’t go to the gym anymore. Now I’ve stopped making new drawings. And now I am in my third week of not streaming. I wish to get back to all the things I used to do. But I don’t even know how to have a proper life routine anymore. And I am not ready to do this yet. At least not for a month. I have to move to a new place and starting a routine now will feel different when I move out.

After all the things I’ve done, I still can’t shake this feeling out of me. I am too scared to take a month for a break. Two weeks wasn’t enough, so there must be something I am doing wrong. I would have to compensate for my missing time with a lot of new art. Still, I have to try my hardest to get rid of my artist block as soon as possible.

What should I do? As soon as I stopped drawing I had more ideas. So I started writing a lot. Writing isn’t enough to compensate for the satisfaction I get when I color or draw. I am proud that I was able to think up a lot of new story ideas. But the feeling does not leave me. I know I can’t still make art, I am trying not to force myself to do something want kinda hurts me and drains me.

Now I thought that the only way to cure this is to force myself to make more art even if I don’t want to. Or I can also tackle the issue straight on. Write down all my reasons for making art so unbearable. But the second option does make more sense to me. I’ll have to sit down and address why am I having so much trouble.

First I thought I needed a well-deserved rest. Now here I am trying to solve some deep-rooted artist block. Like I’ve said before I want to make new art already. But for some reason, It feels like I am suffering when I do so. I don’t enjoy it as much as I’ve used to. Even worse when I am scared of failing. As if I couldn’t go and redraw it again.

So I am going to work on that. I’ve decided to give myself as much time as possible to solve this. I am out moving soon, so it will also give me time to concentrate and pack my things. How can I make art if all my supplies are in boxes? It would be kinda funny to find out that the issue comes from everything else in my life. I am not surprised if it is. But that is something I’ll figure out in the next few weeks.

So please wish me good luck and I hope you have a nice day!

Do not forget to give me a visit at The Senspirational ArtRoom. All I need is your support and now you can do so by going to my Patreon page. Or go to see my older drawings at DeviantArt. There are also many other sites that I am currently active in. Never forget to add me on Facebook, Twitch, Instagram, Tumblr, and Pinterest. Well, I’ll leave now. Be nice to others and have a nice day!

See you all later and take care,

from Ijiserure.