Hello Everybody! How are you all doing?

Welcome to my new post. Today I am taking it easy. Summer is near. Major life changes are right around the corner. And there is so much to reflect about. So it the right time to reevaluate my whole life is here. I have to reconsider my goals and wants in life.

If you know me, you all have noticed how many things I want and crave for. At this point, I want everything that I can get my hands on. Well, that is not true. I only want things that I need and like. And most of it is all based on things that I need on a regular basis, art or for traveling.

Of course, I want the material stuff. I am only human. I dream of having a big kitchen and a brand new car. I want things that money can’t buy. People think that only objects can make you happy. But you also have to think about what you need emotionally and psychologically. And those are things people tend to ignore the most when living their day to day lives.

Lifestyle

Since I was a teen, I’ve dreamed of going to very far places. Having fun, doing all the things that wished for without no restraints or judgment. Almost ten years have gone by. I still dream about the same thing. But now it feels like I have to fight a war for it. At this point, I have to almost run away to get that sense of freedom I’ve been craving for.

I am an adult, but I am treated like I’m still a child. It is because nobody lets me be my true self without judging my choices. Always pleasing others, trying my hardest to make them like me. And after so many years of playing this crazy game, all I want to do is lash out. And go to the farthest point on this planet and live the way I want to live.

I dream of having my own home, with my own rules. A big kitchen to cook all my favorite foods. Save a ton of money and spend it all in whatever I lay my eyes upon. And do whatever I want and feel whatever I am feeling without critiques or looked down on. I am so determined to change my life to the point where I’ve cut off my hair. This will make them understand.

Art

I love art. I like it so much that I have to create something new every single day. When I was little I used to get picked on a lot in school for drawing so much. Even my own family thinks that what I do is ridiculous. But I’ve ignored them for all these years. And kept doing what I love despite their opinions. I see their compliments and praise as hypocrisy.

I’ve reached this far with a lot of hard work. My parents never enrolled me in an art school, so I had to learn by myself. After graduating University my mother convinced me to stop drawing and get a job instead. I got a job but I never considered stop drawing. It is the only way I have to express myself and I won’t let anybody shut me up.

My dream is to get better at what I do. I want to turn my art into a profession. But there is so much I need to learn before I get there. Art is not cheap but it is a risk I rather take. It takes long hours working drawing and painting to make an artwork look the way you want it to be. But nobody sees the artist behind the canvas. The life of an artist is the type of life that makes me happy.

Travel

I want to see the world. It wasn’t a need I had until a few years ago. I’ve realized that living isn’t only for working and supplying your vital needs. There is more out there to do and experience with my life and I do not want to waste it this way as everyone else does. It is okay to settle down and have a family and get a stable job. But I don’t accept when it is forced upon you like a life sentence.

There are always people trying to bring me down. Convince me otherwise that my dreams and ideas are foolish. And this is where I take fuel from. All that negativity and rejection is my power to keep on fighting to prove them all wrong. That I can do whatever I set my mind to. And that nobody has the power to stop me. The only thing they can do is join me or get out of my way.

There are so many places I want to go to. I want to visit Europe. Go on a cruise around the world. Step on all seven continents and more. I am still young and there are many opportunities to go to cities I’ve never been to before. It takes a ton of money and a lot of planning. All I want is to see interesting things and places. Then take photos of it to remember the experience. It is so hard to ask for such a wish?

All I want is to have a happy life. Live the way I want and I please. Go to where ever I want and do whatever I want. I am not hurting anybody when I do these things. But people hurt me a lot when they try to stop me. So started baring my fangs to everyone who gets in my way. I am so close to achieving my own true happiness.

And there you have it, a new diary post. This might have sounded quite random and personal. But this is going to be the most important thing in my life right now and I want to have it clear on all aspects of my life. I am sure that I am not the only one who feels the same way. At least I have someone joining me on this trip and they have lived their own form of prohibitions. If you are like me, listen to your heart. It is hard to step forward but that makes you brave.

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See you all later and take care,

from Ijiserure